When opportunity knocks..

Going once, going twice, going thrice and gone...

In my almost two years stay in Ateneo, I had every 'opportunity' to laugh, to cry, to listen, to be heard, to dream, to say goodbye to some of my priorities and a number of unthinkable experiences which I never expected. Good or bad, everything happened for a particular purpose.

Today, unexpectedly, the opportunity that almost swept me off my feet a few months ago knocked for the second time. However, comparing it to the way I responded before, it was more of an invitation to reassess my self - what I'm capable of, how much I can stretch myself just to achieve a certain goal and most importantly, how willing I am to pour out all the 'water inside my secret well'. Going back to my reaction, I realized that I was actually happy -- happy because I have the opportunity to grow in my field, to escape from the tyranny of my current office and to be more than the 'AA of the DAVP'. However, despite the overwhelming happiness, I am actually scared. SCARED because I'm not sure if I can handle a big responsibility, if I can handle a 'program' and if I can handle the pressure, internal and external, if in case, I consider the transfer.

Yet the more I reflect, the more I feel that what I experienced today was really more of a humbling experience, aside from it being something to look forward to. I mean, it is really humbling that someone as professional and as 'great' as Kuya Ruffy would consider me for the position. That after all pala, my efforts are really paying off, that my efforts regardless of how unconscious I am is actually doing me good. That despite all the tears and humiliation, I am actually valued by others. It is really something overwhelming :)

Now, I am looking forward to have a short talk with Kuya Ruffy. I'm not sure what the outcome will be but I am sure that I will tell him of my fears and hopefully, from that talk, I can decide if I will push through with his offer. Truly I can say that I am blessed because it's really not normal for an opportunity, which I once 'brushed off', would knock the second time around. Maybe it has more to offer, maybe it is 'sweeter the second time around' :)

I seek for your prayers that I may be able to discern what is best for my career and that God may also desire what my heart desires :) 

A Soulful Relationship by Rev. Ronald McFadden

If you’re not married yet, share this with a friend. If you are married, share it with your spouse or other married couples and reflect on it.

An African proverb state, “Before you get married, keep both eyes open, and after you marry, close one eye.”

Before you get involved and make a commitment to someone, don’t let lust, desperation, immaturity, ignorance, pressure from others or a low self-esteem, make you blind to warning signs. Keep your eyes open, and don’t fool yourself that you can change someone or that what you see as faults aren’t really important.

Once you decide to commit to someone, over time his or her flaws, vulnerabilities, pet peeves, and differences will become more obvious. If you love your mate and want the relationship to grow and evolve, you’ve got to learn to close one eye and not let every little thing bother you. You and your mate have many different expectations, emotional needs, values, dreams, weaknesses and strengths. You are two unique individual children of God who have decided to share a life together.

Neither of you are perfect, but are you perfect for each other? Do you bring out the best in each other?

Do you compliment and compromise with each other, or do you compete, compare and control? What do you bring to the relationship? Do you bring past relationships, past hurt, past mistrust, past pain? You can’t take someone to the altar to alter him or her. You can’t make someone love you or make someone stay.

If you develop self-esteem, spiritual discernment, a “a life”, you won’t find yourself making someone else responsible for your happiness or responsible for your pain.

Manipulation, control, jealousy, neediness, and selfishness are not the ingredients of a thriving, healthy, loving and lasting relationship! Seeking status, sex, wealth and security are the wrong reasons to be in relationship. What keeps a relationship strong?

Communication, intimacy, trust, a sense of humor, sharing household tasks, some getaway time without business or children and daily exchanges (a meal, shared activity, a hug, a call, a touch, a note).

Leave a nice message on the voicemail or send a nice email. Sharing common goals and interests. Growth is important. Grow together, not away from each other, giving each other space to grow without feeling insecure. Allow your mate to have outside interest. You can’t always be together. Give each other a sense of belonging and assurances of commitment. Don’t try to control one another. Learn each other’s family situation. Respect his or her parents regardless.

Don’t put pressure on each other for material goods. Remember for richer or for poorer. If these qualities are missing, the relationship will erode as resentment, withdrawal, abuse, neglect, dishonesty, and pain replace the passion.

The difference between “United” and “Untied” is where you put the I.

To The Man I Will Someday Love

Below is a letter I found in my daughter’s website (I have her permission to share this). She wrote it to “the man I will someday love.” I was expecting to read a gushing, romantic, idealistic tome. I was humbled instead by her sentiments. It’s filled with sensible expectations. I pray that this will make every girl believe that hope does spring eternal, and even if your heart has been broken a few times, you can always put the pieces back together, and make it right the next time around. Take your time. Don’t rush and don’t just “settle.” If it’s part of His plan, God’s best awaits you out there.

Letter:

Dear You,

I will admit that sometimes I really do wonder if you exist.

There is a part of every little girl’s heart that envisions her prince charming. At age three, it is usually of a man who can save her from the wrath of an evil stepmother, wake her from eternal slumber or give her that true love’s kiss.

In elementary school, he becomes the boy with the least cooties, the one who’s willing to cross the playground to share his Oreos even if it makes him a target for the week of all the other boys.

Come high school, it’s that boy you stand with at prom, who your father stared down at the door, who provided you with an experience complete with photos you will cringe at a decade later, a corsage that yellows in the refrigerator, and a faded memory of a night that seemed almost too magical to be real.

Nineteen years into this life, however, and still unwilling to give my heart away, I am still that same little girl who hopes for her prince charming. And although I wonder why it has taken you this long to sweep me off my feet and whisk me off to your palace on horseback, I know that it is probably because meeting you will be better than any fairytale I could’ve read as a kid.

A couple of heartbreaks and a few years wiser though, I will admit that there are times when I question your existence. Because I have yet to meet the guy who makes me hear songs like “All My Life” or “A Whole New World” in my head when I see him does not mean I don’t hope that it’ll ever happen.

I may already know you or may still meet you someday—something I leave completely up to God because I’m pretty sure our story will be epic.

However, I can’t promise you that I’d make the world’s most perfect princess. In fact I’ll probably keep you on your toes and amuse you with my eccentricities—there are a lot of them. I’ll probably steal a bunch of your T-shirts and turn them into shirt dresses, or drive you slightly mad with my obsessive compulsivity and my need to fix your collar constantly.

I can promise to be your best friend however—that person you can rant to after a rough day, the hand you can hold when you get sad, or the person you can text when situations get awkward.

I’ll probably mess up your hair sometimes and hug you for too long, but that’ll only be because I absolutely adore you. I’ll bury my head in your shoulder during scary movies and make you feel like superman when you kill those flying cockroaches that really shouldn’t exist. I’ll cook your favorite food on your birthday and try my best to make friends with your mom.

I’ll respect your nights-out with the boys and make you seem like the perfect guy to my barkada. I’ll watch basketball or soccer games with you, and not complain when you cheer too loudly at the TV set.

I’ll know the difference between giving you space and being constantly there for you—even if it means sitting and playing video games with you or taking hot chocolate runs when it rains. I’ll listen to your music and we’ll go on epic adventures together—seeing the world, taking awesome pictures, eating awesome food, and never running out of things to tell each other along the way.

I won’t be waiting for you to sweep me off my feet and take me on a magic carpet ride, because I know I won’t need anything like that to fall for you—I will love you for you.

You will be that someone to make goofy faces with in pictures, to lace fingers with when I’m lonely, and to take long walks under the stars with on the beach.

You’ll be the guy who takes me the way I am—and will laugh as I burst into Disney song or pick out pink wallpaper. You’ll be that someone I envision a future with—us filling out visa forms as we travel the universe, picking out our first dog together and arguing about what to name it, or being snap-happy stage parents in our preschooler’s annual mini-plays. And I keep hoping that maybe someday when we find each other, you will become that someone whose smile I wake up to in the morning and the last one I speak to every night.

So to the man I know does exist, and who will help me maybe make sense of the world someday, this man I can’t wait to love. Please know that I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with you. But for now, I wait. Fingers crossed and palms held together, I hope that you’re out there somewhere, waiting for me, too.

With the hope I will be yours for always,

Me

This is written by Albert Einstein. Read it carefully and try to reflect.

Sometimes in our relentless effort to find the person we love,
we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us.
We miss out on so many beautiful things
simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns.

Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words,
for you will find rewarding happiness not with man you love but the man who loves you more.
The best lovers are capable of loving from a distance far enough
to allow the person to grow but never too far to feel the love within your being.

To let go of someone!
Doesn’t mean you have to stop loving,
it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness
without expecting him to come back.
Letting go is not just setting the other person free,
but is also setting yourself free from all the bitterness,
hatred, and anger that keep in your heart.

Do not let the bitterness rare you away your strength and weaken your faith,
and never allow pain to dishearten you,
but rather let yourself grow with wisdom in bearing it.
You may find peace in loving someone from a distance not expecting something in return.
But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow.
We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past,
but real peace and happiness come only in acceptance of what reality is today.

There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful
and we just find ourselves so intensely attracted to that person.
This feeling soon become a part of our everyday lives
and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions.
The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just friendship.

We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer,
but in the end, our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves.
You don’t have to forget someone you love.
What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality
without being bitter or sorry for yourself.
Believe me, you would never be better off giving that dedication
and love to someone more deserving.
Don’t let your heart run your life,
be sensible and let your mind speak for itself.

Listen not only to your feelings but to reasons as well.
Always remember that if you lose someone today,
it means that someone better is coming tomorrow.
If you lose love that doesn’t mean you failed in love.
Cry if you have to, but make it sure that tears wash away
the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you.
Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you,
and when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.


There are two ways to live your life.
One is as though nothing is a miracle.
The other is though everything is a miracle.