Reflections of a Probinsyana

1. There is no rule saying that YOU SHOULD NOT DINE ALONE. Ever since I've been nested under my friends' wings, I've always thought and felt that having to eat out all alone by yourself seem awkward.  I was thinking THEN that some people (esp. those dining with someone) might be whispering and taking pity on you as they start to think that you might not have any friends at all which is eventually NOT TRUE. It just showed how insecure I am...that as soon as I have to retrack myself without someone engulfing me with a wing, truth is I simply can't stand alone, I was dependent even up to the point of determining my identity. Yes, your group can help you establish your identity but sooner or later you have to detach your own identity from your group identity.  Honestly, it helped me appreciate myself more. HAVE TIME FOR YOUR SELF. It was the really relieving and it made me more confident, not only when facing the "crowd" but confident that I had the identity that was from me, not from my friends, not from what people expect from me, but what i can call as my own.

2. Metro Manila is not a scary place after all.  I thought it was true that every I go, I would see crimes, accidents and all those negative things that you can think about it. The explanation: Metro Manila is a big place which means that the number of crimes committed in the our province would be REALLY minimal plus the fact that the demand of society is not that "significant" compared here.  Nevertheless, for those who are still in our province, be thankful, at least you're still not tagged as soon-to-be-extinct (tnx Tito Jun for the thought).   But still, people living in here should be more careful not just for the crimes but for some factors which creates a "great" difference on values and priorities on one's life.

3. Meeting with friends should be based on appointments. Considering the distance of the places, yes, you should set appointments with your friends if you're planning to meet with them. I only had the chance to meet with few of my friends and sadly, the only person that I saw thrice was just Jhoie but nevertheless I'm thankful because at least from now on, I'd get to see her often.

4. Credentials may or may not count. Yep, competition is so stiff that oftentimes, your "flying colors" doesn't seem to fit at all. Face it, there are really a number of competent applicants here. What could really make you stand our from the crowd is CONFIDENCE. You should be able to defend your qualifications just like your thesis. Companies hire people who can assert themselves not those who assume that they will be hired because they have written their achievements on their resume.  It's just a paper, they will hire you, not the paper.  

5. Metro Manila is not a good place to spend your vacation. You don't your vacation to be  so stressful because of the endless traffic right? The big malls and the divisoria would be cool but if you want serenity, then manila is not a good place, better remove it from your  list. Trust me.   

When Someone Misses That Someone

when REAL FRIENDS part ways to SEARCH for their success, some things are SACRIFICED... their TIME to enjoy each other's company and their MERE PRESENCE which gives you theCOMFORT and ASSURANCE that you'll have someone to turn to.

 ..and the TORMENT of MISSING THEM and wanting to HOLD THEM kills you more.

but FRIENDSHIP doesn't end there.

because FRIENDSHIP is more than theHUGS, the TAPS, the GIMICKS, the LAUGHTER, the TEARS...

it is holding on to what isINVISIBLE  andTRUSTING that despite theABSENCE, you're FRIENDS... that you'll always be NO MATTER WHAT..

THIS IS WHAT FRIENDSHIP IS ALL ABOUT

FLY HIGH GUYS!

DREAM ON!

... 'coz I'm Leaving on a Jetplane

Yesterday, we were in molino for a farewell party. Ca, may, oey, momi and the culprit (kixie) were there. It was about time that we say goodbye for the mean time to our dear friend, kixie, for she will be away for a while. She's bound for South Cotabato where she'll be spending her meaningful JVP months.  It was supposed to be an ordinary night with the typical "take care"s, "goodluck"s and "goodbye"s but I never felt that.  It became a night of reconnection, a simple act of reuniting. I was surprised by the countless stories that we shared and how much I missed them. THEM..the special persons who stood by me regardless of who I am and what I have. It's just sad that Kix has to leave though I know that it was meant to be, it was planned that she has to go there and be part of the community.  It just pains me knowing that there could be a greater possibility that we will not see each other as often as we want but I'm definite that whenever we want to keep in touch, we could always reach each other regardless of the distance. I'll keep the missed calls and texts in mind, kixie ^_^

Another shot. Tim is leaving too. It will also be this week and it's definite. Ooh..why does everybody leave? x_x Albeit, it's only a month or more, reality is he will not be here. Guess I have to think of some effective coping mechanism while they're away.

Everything You Do... Makes Me Know How Much I Love You

Just a few minutes ago, Tim was here to visit and check up on me. I'm bound for Legazpi tomorrow for an exam and a job interview in Metro Gaisano. Tim was making sure that I'm feeling well because yesterday I wasn't and see if there are things that I might still need that is essentila for tomorrow's trip. This is his indirect manner of saying "I want to go with you but my parents didn't permit me..." Nevertheless, his mere concern means a lot and I wouldn't mind if he'll not be there to share my anxiety for the exam. His presence this afternoon is already enough.

Ever since I started job hunting in Naga, Tim was always there to accompany me though I didn't oblige him to. It was like the two of us were both applying for the same job. If I'm applying for this id or clearance, he'd apply too. If I'm about to have my picture taken, he'd also comply even if it means more expenses on his part because I don't really know if he'll really apply for a real job. But what I see from his actions, he just wants to show his support for me which I can clearly comprehend.

Thus, this afternoon as I sat and glance at him with the air swiping across his face, I couldn't exactly tell how happy I am seeing him here, being with me. I couldn't even count the times when he would show his great affection for me and I couldn't even remember an instance when he demanded me of reciprocating his love the way he wanted it to be. He was always contented with what I could give and saw every good aspect in my bad experiences. I saw in his eyes as I was staring at him, the unfathomable kindness and patience which made me fall for him. The type of kindness and patience that few individuals possess. The one that made him unique and worth loving.

PUP...

Thank you for making me want to wake up in the morning and gradually embracing the rays of the sun.

Thank you for making me want to eat my breakfast knowing that if I didn't, you'd be so disappointed because you'd think that I'm on a diet even when you insist that I'm not FAT.

Thank you for making me appreciate life itself.

Thank you for showing me that life is indeed wonderful.

Thank you for every favor you've wholeheartedly done.

Thank you for not regretting of loving me AGAIN.

Thank you for being the music of my life.

Thank you for making me fall in love with you, not once, not twice but a hundred times and still counting.

Thank you for bringing smiles on my lips.

Thank you for pinching my cheeks which makes me think if I'm indeed gaining pounds or you just find me adorable (?!)

Thank you for TRAINING me on how to be PATIENT.

Thank you for the silence when I need it.

Thank you for the hands which brings me security.

Thank you for the nice bear hugs which makes me fall asleep.

Thank you for being the lyrics of my music.

Thank you for the simple taps on the back which brings me encouragement.

Thank you for the wonderful and meaningful roadtrips.

Thank you for cooking meals for me.

Thank you for endless thumb wrestling sessions.

Thank you for bearing with me.

Thank you for loving me.

Thank you for not giving up even if I thought of doing so.

There are more reasons for me to thank you and I know you know that. Hey pup, I hope that with these simple things, you'd feel that I'm really and deeply grateful of having you. I guess, this is my simple way of saying how much I love you. ^_^

Extra Extra

JAIRUS JAN VERDADERO

born: December 16, 2006

christened: April 8, 2007

at the Immaculate

 Conception Church

our little angel